week 14...

要考试了，读书读书读书。。。一直出现在我脑海里。。。
但，书，是有读，但读的是。。。脸书，也就是全世界都很出名的。。。facebook！！！

下星期，要交assignment了，起屋子给一个叫ASHALANEE的原住民。在金宝的。到现在我都不懂那ASHALANEE是个男还是个女的。。。只懂他很大胆，竟然敢住我们起的屋子。。。但，几个月前听说他不要住了。。。算聪明点了吧。。。呵呵。。。不然，倒下来也不懂谁要去负责。。。

现在，家里没什么人，全部该回家乡的都回了。。。剩下我和弟弟罢了。。。弟弟不是我真的弟弟，是一个ktar的，为什么叫他弟弟，我也不懂。。就习惯了。。。可能他不是妹妹吧。。。所以就叫他弟弟咯。。。

对了，说到妹妹，突然看到秀琴的部落格。。。突然看到我的名字在她最新的日记。。。呵呵，她借了我的一句话。。。很久很久前写的。。。想不到我写的东西也那么有意思哦。。。哈哈哈。。。（http://gyrenakhim.blogspot.com/2009/08/blog-post_29.html）

《哥的话,嘻嘻，德威，就借着我用这句你的话，
“我很了解我的心从来没迷路过，这条路是我想要走的那条路，而是这条路太难走了，也太窄了，想挤进去也太多了，我已经尝试努力的走下去，但。。。这条路，有容下我的地方吗？就算是只个小小空间，我，也满足了。。”
这是我妈？》

我也蛮感性的哦原来。。。 哈哈哈哈！！！！

This semester... Tired

tired... tired... tired...
tired of evythg... tired of studies, tried of curriculum activities, tired of src, tired of friends, tired of love, tired of competition...

study~i hv reli no idea on what had i studied or learned in this semester... sorry for my noob-ness... i reli... cannot understnd of it even if the lecturer said tat it is just "high-school" stuff... am i cannot be compared to a high skul student? maybe i m worse than a hi-skul student... i m not sure... reli... reli... worry of this semester... kia-su... i admit it... evy1 tot tat i vy pro, but in fact i m not... evy1 said... "wah... president list lor.. u dunno, then hu will knw lor... if u fail arr? then i no nid tek exam ady lor"... speechless... this semester=die...assignment started from week1 till week14... structural concrete design... sumthing tat make us sufferring for the whole semester... lamfoongsin... aiz...

curriculum activities~moulala becum the vicechair of traveler's den... n organizing the sg lembing trip... evryday worry of the market... targetting 35 ppl... if not reach it, or anythg happen... the loses will be responsibled by us... n which is not a small value... duty at booth evyday, make me have no free time to hang out with frens during break time...

src thing~merdeka week... utar ball... blablabla... meeting... and also budget n financial account... wth... i not even settle the account for merdeka week else... then also caused of src meeting n activities... make me skip quite lot of classes... no wonder heard ppl said, entering src thn hv to prepare for getting worse in exam... assignment, the last week already... week 14... there is still an assignment which i think is the toughest one and not yet completed... make my life... BORING!

friends~wanna hang out with frens like previous semesters... but how? i can't... can't even find out free time for hanging out... i knw that maybe i am already started being erm... maybe "boycott" for always refuse to go out with coursemates... coz of meeting n other activities.. but i can do nth... well, now, actualy i juz come bek from hanging out with hanjian, weihao n khaishen... yumcha (or my dinner) and pool... lol.. til 5am...

love~well, wat is love? who do i love?? i dunno.. n vy blur of it... i dun wanna think abt it... i rmbr got sumbody told me b4, love is suffering... dun love is better... erm.. quite agree with it... do i love her? i dunno, and i hope tat i wont think so much... so, now, what can i do is jz treat evy1 as gud frens... and of coz, i luv all my frens... i juz dun wanna to let ppl hate, and hope tat ppl will like me n treat me as gud or maybe best fren...

competition~a gud news... our team is qualified for the bridge competition by UTM... din expect tat we can be accepted since the design is simply draw one using 1 nite time... somemore there is quite a lot problem occuring during the drawing stage... however, qualified into the competition, mean we have extra thing to do during these months... haiz... exam+assignment+trip+now, bridge competition again....

exam till 28th of Sept, 30th nite of Sept goin to sg lembing trip, till 2nd of Oct... 5th of Oct goin to UTM Johor for competition till 7th of Oct.. and industrial training, which i dunno when shud i postpone to... maybe 12th... let Dr. Lai them decide on it... coz i think IJM wil kill me if i tell them i wan to postpone again... but the training will be ended on 31th of Dec... means... i can only go back Perlis on January 2009..summore less than 1 week.. coz of the orientation for January intake... haiz haiz haiz...

七夕情人节快乐

A very ... erm... dunno-how-to-describe day today...
well, for tis blog, jz let me briefly write down what had i done in this semester... as a memory for me in the future... so, i think i hv to write it here 1st bfore i forget it...
well, in tis sem, i join quite a lot of... so-called curiculum activities... From orientation, to src, to society... orientation, as mentioned, i was the ast. treasurer for RCM... but in fact, is responsible for VIP n helpers food.. oo, ya, i was oso the oath taker for the mass call, whose voice is the loudest wan, according to my juniors.... LOL... but we r praised by mr.denish.. manager of DSA, haha~
thn i was the helper for icebreaking n wfc.. wfc, till now i stil dunno wat i actualy helped them in the event... i jz remember, i took the helper tag, n sat there for the whole concert... n, mayb... again... the sound-effect manager... LOL..
well, for the icebreaking, which was the event tat made me knw the most juniors... bcoz i was the faci for the icebreakin, or so-called SPY... lol... from there, i knw a lot of frens... but i think till now, the most got contact de oso are jz qi and doni onli... we r 小毛驴... lol.. stil rmber?? WAKAKA
ok, then i mongchacha then enter jor SRC... student representative committee...become the treasurer of it... sound vy yeng rite?? but actualy not... is the committe tat let ppl "put on table" wan... evythg oso nid to involve, evythg oso related to us.. damn busy!!!! and then, one day, zhiling ask me whether wan join comitee for society o not... n then, again, mong cha cha, then becum vice chair of traveler den ady... swt...

ok...no doubt, tis sem i reli get knw a lot lot lot lot new frens... compared to few previous semesters i at UTAR... n most of the new frens tat i knw is coz of... ice breaking, society, src, malacca "TRIP" and 2nd book selling!!

so-called malacca trip...thx for "strong man"

oohh.. ya, n also coz of i help xinqi (a cute gal from my icebreaking group) to help her n her frens to register art n craft membership, so i get to knw the two frens of her, fiona n peiseen... i knw fi 1st, n how i knw her? it is coz of a vy... funy? or sory? story.. lol.... but coz of tat case oso, i with they three gals bcum more gud frens.. coz of the RM10 senior, or RM6.66666 seniors and the bubble milk tea (where i knw seen there)... haha...
yaa, i knw mr.v as well from selling books... among so many juniors i sell 2nd hand books, i think mr.v is most gud wit me de laa... altho not vy gud fren oso XD
ok then... i mong cha cha bcum src ady maa, so i oso get to knw sum src from other campus... especially sg long wan... dunno y, mayb is a tradition... usually KL campus n sg long campus src more close wan.. but not other campus... hahahhaa...
then, in this sem, i oso mongchacha then go jor join 1 competition... a vy nice competition.... ASEAN build n break competition... at UNITEN.... quite a nice wan... we built a tower crane prototype by using the material they provided us on the spot... in abt 3-4 hrs for us to build... UTAR sent two teams there... CI y3 and y4 students... guess wat, y4 students lose jor... but we!! din lose... juz.. disqualified =.= hahahhaha...

pity us kena "mao kai tao" for our lunch... looking on sky...blaming the god.. y our life so poor...
our "baby" after 3 o 4 hours... on mr.tan table SA block now...

oh ya, we had a trip last time... goin to KL (from KL go KL??? =.=)... a trip by traveler's den... quite happy tat tis trip can success... altho i m not the organizing committee... i involved quite lot in it... so i think i ady treat tis trip as my "baby" lol..

thn... cant think of anythg ady... juz tis sem, quite sien the subj... lamfoongsin... haiz... asgmnent frm week 1 - 14... sot sot sot!!!! low kao sai... dunno wat he teach!!! evyday "huh... huh... huh..." sien!!! dr.chew... he teach quite nice kua... but i dunno... cz he teach, i sleep o i talk!!!! lee min lee... ok larr.. but i chat oso =.=" sorry to them... T_T
Ya, tis sem, i oso becum the helper of Famine 30... 1st time din eat solid food for 30hours... wow... n i din hungry at all!!! (cheat ppl wan larr).... but stil ok larr... 30 hours onli maa.. sapsapsui.. altho we actualy is famine 33... lol... then i saw ah mei oso!!!! rocks! guangliang oso... altho i asleep when guangliang sang til half... paiseh to him ><

Together with a cute gal, wei wei at the famine camp... youngest in our camp, 7yrs old!

but didi said me gold fish uncle (look alike me?!) ><

ok, week 13 ady now.... but my knowledge still on week 1 o 2 onli... hahhha... vy nice.... tis sem.. goin to die lorr.... n i till now dun even knw when i wan to go bek kampung... i tak tau.... i wanna go bek, tis weekend o nex? haiz... if i dn bek either of these two week.. i hv to wait wait wait wait till NEXT YEAR!!! yeah!!! coz i hving exam till 28th of Sept, then 1 n 2nd of Oct hving another trip (oso traveler's den one), thn 5th of Oct haiz... work ady... with IJM.... sien sien sien ><

The project that i will be going to internship for... A 5-star hotel at KL

long long long time din write blog le lorr...

well... reli quite long time din blog ler...
erm... 1 month 2 month... forget le lorr...wakakaka... fanzheng nobody knw tat i got blog oso de larr.. lol....
well... to explain here, actualy i start blogging since form5 ady... here is the proof... u guys can see from here...

stupid4evil.multiply.com

hahaha... i stil rmbr my very 1st blog is abt a scorpio wan.. lol... coyotito as in form5 novel... kakaka... well... i show the link here juz to prove tat i m NOT influenced by any1 to begin blogging... erm... scare tat u guys tot tat i m like sum1 maa... LOL... ya... i m vy "expensive", understnd?? LOL
hahaha... but tat one is longlonglonglonglong time punya history jor...
so ok larr... since nth to do recently.. (in fact, a super bz semester >< vy fan, vy stress, vy bz... my frens got feel it??) so now... i start unlock my blog la... n thn start to update it... ermm...
well... today still nth much to write larr... quite lazy ady... tmr stil goin to hving 2 tutorial... 1 meeting n 1 sg long erm.. dunno wat competition...but i knw go there to see sr korkor flirting lar... wakakka... lol... k lar... byebye...

无聊的晚上

跟housemate去了民歌餐厅（小树）吃晚餐，吃了整整两个小时多。真的是有够无聊的。
刚才看到有个因为orientation认识的朋友在msn的personal message里写了一句“男孩放手让女孩走，不是男孩放弃了女孩，而是因为男孩太爱女孩”，很熟悉的一句。
这，不就是我之前写的吗？他说，是他以前抄我的。我以前写的personal message他都有留下来，说很有意思。呵呵，原来我写的东西也有fans的。。。

在KL的三天。。。

回吉隆坡有三天了。
星期四晚上十一点的巴士，车上只有六位乘客。加上司机总共八个。
很无聊的一个夜晚。好久没有坐晚上的巴士了。尤其是一个人回。
没人陪我聊天。一个人看着窗外，是孤单。
那晚忽然想着想着，落泪了。本以为不会再为你流泪了的。但，不听话的泪水，还是掉下了。
是想起一些回忆吧。毕竟，去年的五月，发生的事情真的太多太多了。
一年了，转眼间。
巴士上，打了电话给正涵，只想找个人聊天，刚开始时，还真的差点讲到哭泣，还好控制得住。
讲了有一小时吧，因为他也很闷，我懂。
五月二十二日，二姐生日了。今年的生日，她在英国。所以没信息给她了。去年好像也是十二点过了才信息她的。那时，是我永远都忘不了的日子。也是我最大遗憾的夜晚，每天都在想，如果，没有那一晚，会是如何？但。。。即使给我知道了，又如何？时间是不可能倒流的。
今年二姐的生日，送了个video给她，拍我们全家人的。这次回家，最大的任务就是把这video搞好（连接起来，找二姐从出生到长大的照片在存入电脑，加入生日歌，放上youtube，等等）好像在赶assignment一样。做了又改，改了又改。
去年的这个时候，我也不是在忙着。但，不同的是，这感动了二姐，而上次的那个，感动不了你，或许，你要收到的话，也许吧。但。。。
对了，今年二姐的生日，也发生了一场意外。三姐，本来想驾车找我的，忽然车前的盖松了，整个飞了起来，遮住前面玻璃镜，她说，当时很危险，看不到前面的车，而旁边全部的车都停了下来让她。结果，得把那盖敲出来（因为扁了点），还要接回去它的joint。而那天，原本打算留在setapak的我，就跟着 ah khoo 的车去了 cheras 我姐家。
今天早上，和三姐去了三姨家吃粽子。表姐的两个女儿也在。一个三岁了一个五岁了。好快哦，还记得之前她们好像才刚出生的。看着她们成长，真的不得不承认时间过得真的很快。怪不得，以前小时常常听大人们说时间不留人。两个小女孩，一个小雯一个小慧，整个家都是她们的声音，到处跑来跑去，无忧无虑的。当小孩，真开心。。。也很简单，一个小小会变色的茶壶，就可以使到她们笑个饱了。真希望，我也可以像她们一样的，简简单单，每天开开心心的，但，能吗？

今天。五月二十一日

要回了。KL。
回到加央才大概八天吧，是，上星期三回来的。
昨天去了alorstar看医生，花了整百块。发觉爸爸妈妈在我身上真的花了不少钱。有千多块了吧。
唉。

昨天还跟爸爸去收房租，中国人的租客。很重的中国音。他们远来这里读书，读的是那里附近的一所回教学院，说回去时可能会做老师，还是翻译员。远离家乡来到这里读书的他们，比跟在吉隆坡的我，真的是。。。我也不懂怎样说。。。

昨晚，和婆婆姑姑一起去吃晚餐，发觉婆婆真的渐渐的老了。要回时，她还问我们要不要拿些菜回家，是她朋友种的，妈妈说不用，叫她自己吃，她却静静的用自己的双手，把菜分成两份，再用原本的报纸左右把两棍菜卷起来，再撕一半。。。再偷偷的把那一半的菜放在我们车后，整个过程她静静的，不想别人看见，但，我全看在眼里了。。。她，一直都这样，想把东西跟我们一起分享。。。忽然，我想起，日后，婆婆越来越老了，姑姑也老了，uncle也退休了，爸爸也退休了，照顾他们的责任，全在我身上了。。。说实在的，满担心会担当不起来。。。

昨天和今天早上，去了学校，同样的校园，但感觉不同了。以前回去时都会有种类似回家的感觉，但这几次，我懂，改变的是什么。。。一年了，转眼间。。。
时间，可以倒流吗？或许，我太天真了吧。。。

昨天晚上，姑姑开着肥田的戏，有一句话满深刻的，“我们只是发了一场梦，但，最严重的是，我尽然不想从这场梦醒过来。。。”

晚上，十一点，搭巴士回kl了，这一次回去，应该得再等到九月了才回了吧。
几时，才会遇见你呢，但我了解，你不想遇见我。。。