Don't know. Don't know what should I do. I know there is something wrong.
Although you never told me, you never wrote to me, I know, and you know about it also.
I know it is some kind of "hiding", is one type of your "self-protecting" that prevent you to drop deeper and deeper.
I don't know what do you want. I don't know why all of it come in such a sudden. Is it any mistake that I have done. I know your feeling is not good, maybe this way can reduce the hurt, or you may feel better in such a way.
Whether you can see this post or not, I just want you to be happy. Promise me, happy always. Smile, and no more tears. I will try also. =)